頑強

我是一根豎立在野邊的小草
毫無依靠
天資不好任雨打
左細胞差右細胞低
憑著頑強固執好斗的生命力
自強不息
攀上樹上的高峰

他人嬉我矮又笨
聞左進了右邊出

路上荊刺多得是
坎坷道路剛開始
自強不息是原則
出人頭地最重要

-小草-

I'm Back!

Been pretty busy lately.
I will have a semester break from 18/1(My last paper for this semester) to 7/2!
Feel free to call me out to gather and chat together! I think I'll be free most of the time!

I still have a subject to go on Monday.
thank God the last three papers(Math, Calculus and Electricity) ain't that harddd for me. =) 
I am going to see what's my average mark as we need to exceed 65% to maintain the 25% scholarship.
Calculus is the hardest paper for me.
We learn function, graph sketching, integration and differentiation in calculus as we gonna use it for the undergraduate program. Integration, sound horrible and terrible right? =/


and Yes! We don't need to memorize all those facts for our papers.
What we need to do is practice and understand the concept cause most of the subjects we took is deal with calculation and programming for engineer.
I love it sometimes! wheee~ But then I am going to take back chemistry during next semester :( needaa to read a lot and memorize! tsk tsk tsk 

Bad news for me.
University of Nottingham Malaysia is going to raise the fees from this year onward from 34000 to 36500 PER YEAR! Shit it!
I am seeking and looking for scholarship in order to reduce dad's financial burden :( I felt guilty sometimes.
and there is an open day in Nottingham today and saw lots of parents.
Yea the quality of teaching and facilities in Nottingham is superb but then the $ is the only problem i think ==

And I am back to normal state! I didn't talk much during the exam period because of stress, study etc.
So now, YEAH! You can find me anytime! hugssss! xoxo

2010 vs 2011

2011也许不会是什么大好吉年
可是还是要在这里祝大家2011行好运 :)
天灾频频地发生而我的心也就快被震眩了
选择用华语因为善于用华文表达嘛

今年
我第一次又这样的感觉
迷失自我的感觉
直到现在还持续着
我不知道自己在干什么，学坏一点了，还有以前开朗的性格不见了，连社交也免了
有心事时应该要找谁倾诉，要找谁在我身旁听我说故事呢？
前面哈哈大笑，后面转过身又是孤单一个人
甚至怀疑自己得了人格分裂症
也许是因为那样
我才那么的怀念中学高中生涯

四月时第一次中dengue
第一次染头发
第一次进入大学
发生太多第一次
还记得刚搬入诺丁汉宿舍
上完课后朋友们都陆续回自己的家了
唯独我，独自回宿舍，面对那四副墙，自己一个人
上天眷恋我
他让我遇到一般很好的朋友
还记得我寂寞时就会去找叽喳公（爱LV的那个还有肥黄聊天）
近来认识了一个可爱的奶小(didi XD)
在诺丁汉变坏是有一点啦
毕竟出到外面真的看很多种朋友，也许那样我才更怀念中学高中生涯

今年在呆在家也只有半年那样
1-4月 = 家
5-7 = 宿舍
7 1/2 - 9 =吉兰丹
10-11 = 宿舍
12= 宿舍、家
有时真的分不清哪个才是我真正的房间，哪个才是我的床 = =

模模糊糊地度过了一年
或许在学院或大学太自由了
一时适应不过来
克服克服

还有，我变得很懒了，不再是以前那个diligent的汶鑫了
还有还有
在诺丁汉，几乎没人懂我的真实华文及英文姓名
因为大家都叫我Alfred.
也许这样导致我有了人格分裂症= =
Alfred跟汶鑫的性格其实很不一样的 @@
汶鑫比较爱读书，斯文，拼gua... 还有，比较节俭，比较社交一些
Alfred有时会<3面子，爱买东西
两个有个共同点就是爱唱歌 XD
当然，
我想做回以前的我多一些 =)

Have a nice day! :)
*我中学的知己我想念你们
还有那个赖赖，记得再陪我唱歌去!!!!!! =)

Final exam coming soon!!

12 days to go for final exam!!

Not feeling well and dizzy. Perhaps I sit and do differentiation every moment today. :(

Still got electricity to go! Thermal Science to go! Statistic math to go!
I wasted last weeks which i just lepak-ing and keep going out. 

Count down for the end of 2010.

And I wanna share some nice songs here :) I love David new album(alto many ppl think soso) because suit my style and taste :) 

Chorus: The day after tomorrow, I can hardly wait, it's getting closer now, closer now.

The day after tomorrow, it's getting closer now, closer now.
Oh my walk is like a run. I love the lyric :D 

And another song "Falling Star" =D

Fish House at Alaska

Should I continue my dream and courageous to Alaska after watching this video? I suspect whether can I stand for it or not.
For the Work and Travel USA program. Perhaps I should join Yellowstone national park which just a server assistant. But I know the $$ can't earn back if I choose Yellowstone.
Sigh
And I am a environmentalist, so I really can't accept it. See first. :'( The fish plant is situated at remote area, and the floor is full of blood, which make me wanna vomit. T____T

Leng lui Khai yein, celine, long time no see liao lor :( bila mau meet? :)

The Young boon sin :)

This is my cousin-Shelly that I mentioned in previous post. Yes I am going her daughter's birthday party! and Christmas party! =) beautiful and leng lui right? ^^ 

and I am still finding a shirt like this! with a shining spider web! One of my birthday wish list 

 

When you believe - Prince of egypt

I have the feeling when listening this version.

another version is 2 diva mariah carey ft whitney houston.
I love the lyric.

Life is full of joy and sorrow

This world is full of love yet another side is full of sorrow.

12.59am. Me and my family are heading to Zhong Nan Qu
A place where just nearby the Chow Kit Road
to have our supper

Everybody is smoking there, just around us.
The condition is bad.
Cockroach is everywhere.
Majority of the people come with an elegant car but I can feel their mind and though is really seriously bad and polluted.

I can barely hear someone talking to somebody through his mobile phone,
bu just shouting, scolding and insulting the person.
Everybody is looking at the rude fella but he do not feel guilty in his heart.
This is human. Just a part of human. You can conclude or judge him by the way he talks, his mannerism and attitude. Perhaps not well-educated or just shameless.
Forgiveness is the best.

Next, a stranger approach us and request for 2 dollar.
I guess he is an Indian. He is carrying a small little bag full with dust and dirt.
He seems like lost his way or having an insane problem.

My elder cousin, Ai ling,25 said he is a rubbish. Shame on M'sia.
Chinese translate: Throw the face of Malaysia.
Then my younger cousin, Ah mei,11 follow her and said 'Yes he is throwing his own face into the deep of hell.'
Well, what I think is 'God loves everyone. Why you torture yourself and go into a sorrow path? You are not insane, perhaps. You are not a maimed or disabled person. God gives you everything include the wealth in yourself. So go and find a job and earn money yourself instead of requesting and demanding  money from others. Change your fate. I know it's hard.'
So I totally disagreed what my cousins said. I remain silence and keep quiet.

Then, another car(merz-benz) park their car.
The Indian go and guide them to park their car with full of hope.
After finishing his duty, he request 2 dollar from the driver.
He hope the rich man will gives or donate him 2 dollar,
But the driver just ignore him.
And the insane man did the same thing again and again.
And he wants money from us but we just ignore him.

Lord, what should I do if I faced this type of situation? Should I just feel with sympathy and just donate the money for the poor and insane man?
Which is the best approach for this situation?
Will this produce any Karma(Buddhism explained it as the action which will affect you in next/another life)?
So what you'll do if you face this type of situation?

I should have a silence meditation to find a solution for this situation.


And I asked my mum,
'If I am going to be a Buddhist monk, what do you think? Do you support me?'
'Just up to you. It's your decision', she said.
'I am glad that you are open-minded.' :)
As long as I know my mum will support me for whatever decision I made, provided the decision is appropriate and right.

Randon stuffs! Mini tweet!

# I think there is a very big potential for Malaysia to develop the solar energy since we almost receive sunlight everyday. But the main and the most obstacle and problem is Tenaga Nasion**. They do not earn if every house or family posses a solar energy system in their house. What's a terrible case!
PS I just watch da documentary of Global Warming in Nottingham theater. Some of the scientists in America use a super-big-machine to absorb Carbon Dioxide, and convert it to Calcium Carbonate. The size of the machine is similar to wind turbine. The main problem is........expensive $$ =/

#There are some reasons why I insist to go back home every weekend! One of the
reason is.........I miss my mum's home cook food! Yummy and delicious! And I miss my fish and chips! :-)

#Don't be emo, resentful, frustrated, and anger. Try to upgrade your EQ! :)

and and and.....I am finding a partner to go to USA or Alaska with me next year(from early of June to end of September). I am going there for working and i am joining the program Work and Travel in USA. 

together we are one!

Okie, my friends they all request me to send my blog's link to them
I decided not to share it. Quite selfish right? hehe
I seldom update my blog (I prefer to write in my own or real diary)
So what's the point for this blog huh?!
Yea and due to my broken English, Issshhh tsk tsk tsk! T_T

And then Facebook is alternatively become my "other" blog! haha

And yea!
Just to let you know, I found a song which name "Together we are one"
Sang by Delta Goodrem,25 (Australian) and this is the theme song of commonwealth 2006!
She sang this when she was only 21!! What?!!! This is a super hard song to sing seriously!
And the lyric are very very very meaningful! Miss lai weng yi, you should have a try on this song!
And I just knew this song when those american idol sang this to Simon Cowell when he was planning to leave American Idol! Then after listened the song, i was like, okay , a hard song, Google it!! oh ya! the singer Delta is better! :D


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WsSGOz6Bf6Y&feature=related

Meaningful lyric! :)
Here we are
Sharing our lives
We made it through
The good and bad times
And still we stand
With hope in our hearts
No matter what
We will play our part
And now we've come so far
One chance to touch a star
Go higher and higher

Find your guiding inspiration
In a place where dreams are made
With a lifetime's preparation
theres no time to be afraid
Put our differences behind us
While we shine like the sun
See what we've all become
Together we are one

Deep inside your heart and soul
You've worked so hard to reach your goal
With every step, with every breath
You gave it all till there was nothing left
Seek out the strength to win
No thoughts of giving in
Go higher and higher

Find your guiding inspiration
In a place where dreams are made
With a lifetime's preparation
There's no time to be afraid
Put our differences behind us
While we shine like the sun
See what we've all become
Together we are one

Finally! David Archuleta second Album The Other Side of Down is released!!
Ohhhhhh Nice I could say! Better than the first album I think. Cause this album is more like his own music.
The first one is a bit pop. :D but then crush and a little too not over you are still nice! :)

Hope that i can get one for free! Dreaming. LOL And my Miss leona just MIA for long time already.
Perhaps she emphasize and focus on how to become slimmer more than her music career! How you will get it back Leona! I miss your tone, songs, voice! :D

And yea! Tonight 10.10.10 I will celebrate the 10th anniversary Nottingham Malaysia Campus! From what i know, they invest RM40000 to organize and celebrate this! wtf, our duit. T_T but have hot air balloon, fireworks and funfair! :D tata

新闻一则----名牌

昨天在电视上看到一则新闻

新闻是指中国很多人都买名牌

所以名牌公司一定会盯住这块肥肉

访问一位女生，收录不错，出街时一定要名牌

而且是一打开厨就每个架都是名贵鞋

然后选择她要的包包和名鞋

访问中他说

现在如果不拿名牌，就跟人家比不上

而且拿名牌可以show off你的地位

如果没拿名牌，人家/家人会问你的经济是否遇上大问题或困难还是怎样的


原来没拿名牌的人经济上都有很大的问题的...我现在才懂
现实的社会
不是说妒忌她，而是她的言论很有问题，也很让我看不顺眼