2010 vs 2011

2011也许不会是什么大好吉年
可是还是要在这里祝大家2011行好运 :)
天灾频频地发生而我的心也就快被震眩了
选择用华语因为善于用华文表达嘛

今年
我第一次又这样的感觉
迷失自我的感觉
直到现在还持续着
我不知道自己在干什么，学坏一点了，还有以前开朗的性格不见了，连社交也免了
有心事时应该要找谁倾诉，要找谁在我身旁听我说故事呢？
前面哈哈大笑，后面转过身又是孤单一个人
甚至怀疑自己得了人格分裂症
也许是因为那样
我才那么的怀念中学高中生涯

四月时第一次中dengue
第一次染头发
第一次进入大学
发生太多第一次
还记得刚搬入诺丁汉宿舍
上完课后朋友们都陆续回自己的家了
唯独我，独自回宿舍，面对那四副墙，自己一个人
上天眷恋我
他让我遇到一般很好的朋友
还记得我寂寞时就会去找叽喳公（爱LV的那个还有肥黄聊天）
近来认识了一个可爱的奶小(didi XD)
在诺丁汉变坏是有一点啦
毕竟出到外面真的看很多种朋友，也许那样我才更怀念中学高中生涯

今年在呆在家也只有半年那样
1-4月 = 家
5-7 = 宿舍
7 1/2 - 9 =吉兰丹
10-11 = 宿舍
12= 宿舍、家
有时真的分不清哪个才是我真正的房间，哪个才是我的床 = =

模模糊糊地度过了一年
或许在学院或大学太自由了
一时适应不过来
克服克服

还有，我变得很懒了，不再是以前那个diligent的汶鑫了
还有还有
在诺丁汉，几乎没人懂我的真实华文及英文姓名
因为大家都叫我Alfred.
也许这样导致我有了人格分裂症= =
Alfred跟汶鑫的性格其实很不一样的 @@
汶鑫比较爱读书，斯文，拼gua... 还有，比较节俭，比较社交一些
Alfred有时会<3面子，爱买东西
两个有个共同点就是爱唱歌 XD
当然，
我想做回以前的我多一些 =)

Have a nice day! :)
*我中学的知己我想念你们
还有那个赖赖，记得再陪我唱歌去!!!!!! =)

Final exam coming soon!!

12 days to go for final exam!!

Not feeling well and dizzy. Perhaps I sit and do differentiation every moment today. :(

Still got electricity to go! Thermal Science to go! Statistic math to go!
I wasted last weeks which i just lepak-ing and keep going out. 

Count down for the end of 2010.

And I wanna share some nice songs here :) I love David new album(alto many ppl think soso) because suit my style and taste :) 

Chorus: The day after tomorrow, I can hardly wait, it's getting closer now, closer now.

The day after tomorrow, it's getting closer now, closer now.
Oh my walk is like a run. I love the lyric :D 

And another song "Falling Star" =D

Fish House at Alaska

Should I continue my dream and courageous to Alaska after watching this video? I suspect whether can I stand for it or not.
For the Work and Travel USA program. Perhaps I should join Yellowstone national park which just a server assistant. But I know the $$ can't earn back if I choose Yellowstone.
Sigh
And I am a environmentalist, so I really can't accept it. See first. :'( The fish plant is situated at remote area, and the floor is full of blood, which make me wanna vomit. T____T

Leng lui Khai yein, celine, long time no see liao lor :( bila mau meet? :)

The Young boon sin :)

This is my cousin-Shelly that I mentioned in previous post. Yes I am going her daughter's birthday party! and Christmas party! =) beautiful and leng lui right? ^^ 

and I am still finding a shirt like this! with a shining spider web! One of my birthday wish list 

 

When you believe - Prince of egypt

I have the feeling when listening this version.

another version is 2 diva mariah carey ft whitney houston.
I love the lyric.

Life is full of joy and sorrow

This world is full of love yet another side is full of sorrow.

12.59am. Me and my family are heading to Zhong Nan Qu
A place where just nearby the Chow Kit Road
to have our supper

Everybody is smoking there, just around us.
The condition is bad.
Cockroach is everywhere.
Majority of the people come with an elegant car but I can feel their mind and though is really seriously bad and polluted.

I can barely hear someone talking to somebody through his mobile phone,
bu just shouting, scolding and insulting the person.
Everybody is looking at the rude fella but he do not feel guilty in his heart.
This is human. Just a part of human. You can conclude or judge him by the way he talks, his mannerism and attitude. Perhaps not well-educated or just shameless.
Forgiveness is the best.

Next, a stranger approach us and request for 2 dollar.
I guess he is an Indian. He is carrying a small little bag full with dust and dirt.
He seems like lost his way or having an insane problem.

My elder cousin, Ai ling,25 said he is a rubbish. Shame on M'sia.
Chinese translate: Throw the face of Malaysia.
Then my younger cousin, Ah mei,11 follow her and said 'Yes he is throwing his own face into the deep of hell.'
Well, what I think is 'God loves everyone. Why you torture yourself and go into a sorrow path? You are not insane, perhaps. You are not a maimed or disabled person. God gives you everything include the wealth in yourself. So go and find a job and earn money yourself instead of requesting and demanding  money from others. Change your fate. I know it's hard.'
So I totally disagreed what my cousins said. I remain silence and keep quiet.

Then, another car(merz-benz) park their car.
The Indian go and guide them to park their car with full of hope.
After finishing his duty, he request 2 dollar from the driver.
He hope the rich man will gives or donate him 2 dollar,
But the driver just ignore him.
And the insane man did the same thing again and again.
And he wants money from us but we just ignore him.

Lord, what should I do if I faced this type of situation? Should I just feel with sympathy and just donate the money for the poor and insane man?
Which is the best approach for this situation?
Will this produce any Karma(Buddhism explained it as the action which will affect you in next/another life)?
So what you'll do if you face this type of situation?

I should have a silence meditation to find a solution for this situation.


And I asked my mum,
'If I am going to be a Buddhist monk, what do you think? Do you support me?'
'Just up to you. It's your decision', she said.
'I am glad that you are open-minded.' :)
As long as I know my mum will support me for whatever decision I made, provided the decision is appropriate and right.